"slow and steady.

we will go a long way.

trust me."

(wed at phuture)

IS THIS WORLD REALLY LIKE THIS?

Why is this industry so corrupted?

why are these people so downright wicked?

the malay bitch doesnt like me

because the chefs treat me well

so she collaborated with the manager

changed my shift when im off

so the next day i came back on the wrong shift

and they could even have the cheek to cover it up

and pretend that its my fault

saying im irresponsible

tainting my name

and when i thought l'expresso is bad, coffee lounge is much worser.

am i in the right hotel?

or shud i ask myself

am i in the right line?

i saw u once again on wed night at phuture

ur friends all said hi

but u walked pass, u pretended that u dont know me.

fine then.

my fairy god father makes me smile =)

THIS WORLD IS.....

These few days of working is crap.

I HATE IT.

I'll cut the story short.

I was having gastric on sat already.

Chandra the fucker ( restaurant executive) asked,

"u makan alr?" i said no. that was around 3 plus.

High tea was damn busy from 2 to 5.

I worked non stop, dont even have the time to drink water.

They stationed me at poolside area. (WHICH WAS VERY HOT)

5pm and still they didnt give me my break.

Supposedly it should be at 430.

so around 515 i asked again.

" can i go for break? im not feeling well.. having gastric.."

fucker chandra replied : " CAN YOU WAIT ANOT?!"

im like so fucking pissed.

they finally gave me my break at 5.55.

it was so painful until i cudnt really move.

so i took some chocolate milk and sat behind the smoking area to rest.

So painful till i broke down and cried,

 Joey came down and asked what happened.

Lucky or should i say unlucky, Mr Tang ( asst f&b director)

and Chef Gan ( Executive chef) were smoking.

Think they overhead, i only told him i got gastric thats all.

So he went to scold fucker chandra why never let me go for break. (YESSS!!!!!)

Okie lah i admit, the bigger shots like Mr Tang and Chef Gan pay special attention to me.

Compared to others..

So they gave me hell, chandra and colleen ( restaurant manager)

now im still enduring....

still so much but im lazy to elaborate..

Perhaps they dont like it when i get more attention than they do.

LIKE I WANTED IT??!!

This world is too realistic,

they will take more care of you if u are better looking.

BUT,

That doesnt make others around you feel good as well..

i guess my only motivation to work now is..

Joey, a few people from Gordon Grill, and You.

YOU refers to a particular chef from Gordon grill kitchen.

i shall call him S.

he is shy,

he gets my number from Joey but doesnt dare to text me. -_-

He notices my msn PMs.

He asks Joey about little bits and pieces of me.

He cooked steak but doesnt dare give me, he does it indirectly. tsk.

he always grins or smiles when he walks pass me( from a distance)

and i'll make faces back at him.

but when we are up close ( when sitting tgt with me and joey), he gets so sooo shy.

AWWWWW cute right.. Lol.

1)

men are really so damn cheap.

dont u think so?

vincent lim, we are so through.

byebye.

2)

dont tell me u like me,

because u dont know me at all.

im not the old jojo i used to be anymore.

3)

recharge urself,

prepare urself for round 2 baby.

to be continued..

TURN BACK MY TIME.

and i realise.

these men are not what i want at all.

the one who knows me,

who really loved me,

who was really there for me,

it was you.

it used to be you.

and if only time could turn back,

i would want you,

i would want everything that we had.

to.. E.